Sunshine in the cooler season puts us in the sun room for breakfast -- another habitual act.
And here's another commonplace occurrence: when I shop for groceries (always on Fridays), the clerk will ask me (as he did today) -- so, are you having a good end of the week?
Today, upon hearing this, I was too nit-picky in my answer. I wanted to side step the question so I said -- is that like a "how are you," where you're just supposed to say "fine thank you" and provide no detail?
In fact, I wasn't sure if I was having a grand old end of the week. My morning, breakfast notwithstanding, had gotten off to a rocky start (coordinating stuff with Ed was tricky) and I have, in my non-Snowdrop hours, too many things to think through and no clarity of thought going into the weekend. But the clerk was just being polite and I should have said "yes, thank you" because of course, in the scheme of things, my petty issues are just that -- petty and my days are otherwise sublime.
Therefore, when at the next store (Trader Joe's) I was asked by that clerk -- do you have any plans for the rest of the day? -- I took an honest but more positive approach:
I'm baby sitting my granddaughter, I admitted with a smile.
Well that's nice of you -- he answered.
I love my granddaughter, I said.
Lucky you, said another customer.
And I emphatically agreed, even though I wasn't sure which part she regarded as lucky.
Snowdrop is delighted to see me, possibly because I bring over one of her favorites -- a little bunny rabbit with a blue head (she had left it at the farmhouse), or maybe because she is just a "delighted in the world" kind of baby.
But wait a minute -- am I using the right words here? Is she still a baby? Here she is, playing with her rhythm stick:
Ed had asked -- at what age do they become a toddler? I mindlessly answered -- oh, around one.
But Snowdrop is just a few days short of being nine months old. Is she really not a toddler yet?
Even when she deliberately rolls around on the floor, looking at me and chortling away at the silliness of it all, I no longer see her as an infant.
In the afternoon, Snowdrop has that what now, grandma look.
I can't disappoint her. We go outside to smell the autumn air.
There is a strong, gusty wind on this sunny October day, the kind that gives a rosy glow to cheeks and noses.When she protests a jacket, I tell her that in Poland, she would not get away with being outside at her age without a cap.
We walk and sign songs and I think -- actually, I do feel it's Friday and I'm glad it's this day, in the same way that I am glad when it's another day. There are always so many surprises in each one!
For me, there is endless joy as you share this beautiful child and your family life.
ReplyDeleteShe's definitely a toddler, has been for a couple of months I think.
ReplyDeleteYour beginning remarks suddenly had me thinking that babysitting with such a little one is almost a form of meditation... you're so focused on her that you're letting go of everything else.