I’m fairly patient. Fairly. Tell me that my flowers won’t
bloom until next year and I’m okay with that. But if I want change and I decide
to proceed toward that goal – there’s no holding me back.
So, I tell the relevant person at work, I need to move
things out of my office. I’m downsizing.
You’ve hit a busy time for the university. A couple of
weeks. I can get someone in there in a couple of weeks. Or so.
I go to my office today and I assess the prospects. My
mishmash of furniture leftovers looks awful. The space is crowded. There are
boxes upon boxes of old papers, stacks (on the floor) of new books – woah! When
did I ever let it get this bad?
The Law School owes me a desk and a chair. They’re waiting
for the word from me.
And yet...
I look around the tiny but beautiful room. If I get the love
seat out (what was I thinking when I brought it in?) and I eliminate the
refrigerator (once upon a time, I kept milk there for the espressos that I stove
topped on a little burner) and if I got rid of useless books and dozens of
boxes and if I moved the desk this way and placed my computer that way...
Two weeks. I have to wait two weeks. No movers around, no
hulky men here to help me with anything.
Well now, I can do this! I’m not old, not old at all. I can
move love seats out of the office (say what??? It has a foldaway bed inside??
Lord...). Uff, heavy. I can do it!
After that, moving the heavy wooden desk to the opposite side of the room
is easy. And discarding old volumes – really, like clothing, if you haven’t worn it in three years,
give it up! I can do this, I can do this!
I see mouse droppings on the windowsill, where the desk once stood.
Ha! And you tell me the farmhouse is where I’m likely to find mice! No matter.
I know how to clean up after mice, after cats (no cats here, too bad I
suppose), I know how to move it all out and rearrange so that instead of looking
cluttered, it looks – sane.
Now, I can still claim a wonderful and new desk set, because my computer
rests on my own rickety table. But I think, this crazy funky set up of
mismatched ancient pieces is really ... not so bad.
I leave my office. I’m impatient, but I can sleep on this
for a day or two. It’s the weekend. I’ve moved enough for one day.
Can I leave you with farmer Lee’s sunflowers? They’re
peaking right now. Crucial days for sunflowers and for those of us who are
slowly setting the scene for the year ahead.
