Saturday, December 07, 2013

snapshots

I eat breakfast with the other couple here, at Les Acanthes. They're French Canadian and so the conversation is in French, but everyone kindly translates for me the words and phrases that push the boundaries of my comprehension.

We talk for a while about yesterday's Mistral wind. Odile tells me it follows a three day pattern, so that when it comes roaring down on Provence (I am in the district of Provence), it stays for one, three, six, nine, or some other combination of three days. She said it was hell one year when it stayed for 21 days. People went nuts.
My mother tells the story that one day, her grandmother, dressed in the usual puffy long skirts of the day, was picked up by a gust of a Mistral! Up went the skirts and she soared with them a good many paces!

The Mistral brings with it many many good legends!

As we munch on croissants and breads with regional honeys and homemade jams...


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...I ask Odile if this is her family home.
Yes it is. And my sister still lives in that half -- she gestures toward the other wing of the house. My mother also lived and died here. At 95 she would sit in the garden every day -- it was nice to see her stay at home until the very end.

They ask me what my plans are for the day (the other guests are tied to family activities -- they're visiting relatives in the area) and I tell them -- at least three things: the markets, the climb up to the Notre Dame de Garde, and a stroll through the old town.

You're walking up to Notre Dame? The church towers majestically over the city -- perched on top of a hill that juts out maybe 700 meters above the waters. Marseille is very hilly.
I like hills.
Odile shakes her head. Too steep. Some of them are too steep.
That's good! It keeps people moving!
Again she shakes her head. It's good for people between 20 and 60 -- not before and not after and certainly not if you have children. My oldest sister, when she got to be infirm, she never left the house because the walk up to it was to much for her to climb. 

How quickly every conversation eventually leads to age. And then to retirement. Or is it that every conversation in my mind simply plays out that way?


I leave them all to their third and fourth cup of coffee and walk down to the metro stop.

(Here's how blue the skies are today. And by the way, we had a one day Mistral. All is calm, all is bright now. No, no, it's not a crooked photo. It's their crooked chimney. With a lovely old owl weather vane.)


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So, markets first. The fish one, at the waters edge, is hugely interesting, because it literally brings to the tables fish straight from the boats.  Many customers come up, pick up a few fish (some cleaned and gutted, others whole) and head home with them. The pleasures of living by the sea!


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Then I turn into the belly of the city and head for a market that brings out, in my mind, the old Marseille. Here's where she is hiding!


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Shoppers, vendors -- they represent the world out there! The shouts and exchanges carry up the street of produce stalls. At one point all the vendors let out a chorus of Ohhhhhhh! -- triggered by something one seller called out to them. I try to take a photo or two, but the crowds make it tough going. And twice I am gently nudged to watch my purse. (I do! But I suppose even keeping it under my jacket isn't enough. I transfer my wallet to a zipped pocket and proceed with my photos.) Grapes from Sicily, tangerines from Corsica.


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Alright. So Marseille remains complicated. They say it is the only European city that is comfortable with a diverse demographic. It has never been without a diverse demographic and no one is surprised to see couples of mixed races and nationalities or families with children who resemble a mom or a dad or some relative who lives far away. And yet, you can go to most any restaurant along the water's edge and you wont see that same diversity there. It may be that the waterfront eateries are tourist places. I hear French, but it may be that it's not a Marseille French.


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I begin the climb toward the Basilica. Let me first show you the building as it presents itself just before you take the last steps up to it:


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The Basilica (or some portions of it) will be 800 years old in 2014. Like Sacre Coeur is to Paris, this is the emblematic church of Marseille. The views from the top of the hill are predictably grand. I watch two ferries pulling out of the newer port. One is going to Algiers. That can't be a short trip!


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the entrances to the old port and, toward the rear -- to the new port



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the islands


The typical older church is, in my opinion, severe inside. Not so this Basilica!


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(With a distinct nod to the sea.)


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Okay, follow me down now. Narrow streets, few people on them. The occasional shopper. In this case -- a father and son. With a Christmas tree.


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All the way down. To the old harbor again.


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What is referred to as Old Marseille lies behind the second prong of the harbor's U shape. It's hilly here as well, but only slightly so.


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I can tell that this is a frequent tourist destination. Not much of the grit remains here. Renovation and restoration have done wonders to Marseille's old face.


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And here's a key building in this section of town: the old hospice for the poor and homeless.


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I am a little unnerved that this building was to provide care and shelter for the homeless some 400 years ago. Here we are in 2014, stuck with the common cold and still inadequately addressing the problem of homelessness!


Back to the old harbor. It's nearly 2 p.m. and I'm tempted to sit down and eat at one of the many many waterfront restaurants. In fact, I do sit down at one. I look at the menu, I look at people's plates. I see shellfish, I see lobsters. No, this is wrong. The listed bouillabaise too is cooked to be a people pleaser: bouillabaise with langoustines. Bouillabaise with Atlantic lobster.

Bouillabaise -- a fisherman's stew -- is a Marseille invention. I'm obviously going to order it during my stay here. But let it be the fish soup that uses what I saw at the fish market this morning. None of this fancy import from other places, other oceans. For just this one time, let the bouillabaise speak Marseilleise! (It must, therefore, be served, with toasts and a rouille -- a mayonaise mixed with olive oil, garlic, and just a touch of cayenne and saffron.)

I sit down at another restaurant by the water. Not for long. For the second time, I get up and leave.

Finally, I go to a restaurant recommended by Odile: Les Arcenaulx. It doesn't have the sun-bathed waterfront tables. In fact, it's through this courtyard...


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...and into a muted interior. The walls are lined with shelves of old books.  I'm given a good seat for observing the comings and goings of the people here. I'm guessing the woman in red (below) is the owner. Her family must be eating dinner at the big table to the side. The little girl was sent to get the after dinner coffee.


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Closer to me, another woman sits alone. She's older than me and she knows a number of people who come here today. Like me, she is busy with her writing.


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She is nearly done with her meal, I'm about to begin mine. I have to tell you, I stay at the restaurant for 2.5 hours (it converts to a cafe after lunch service and so I am not forcing them to stay open on my account). And still, I leave before she does. She orders another glass of wine, writes some more. I do the same. Two older women, committed to the text of life.

But let me show you my authentic and excellent bouillabaise. With three fish, potatoes and a few mussles. And the toasts with rouille -- which you leave floating in the thickened broth.


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Toward the end of lunch (which also comes with a wonderful arugula salad and a coffee with a plateful of dessert nibbles), I take out my iPhone and check for email (there is WiFi at the restaurant). My students are about to take the exam. I need to be tuned in just in case there are problems.

There are no problems. And there will be no more student questions. This is it. I am truly done with addressing student needs.

I turn off the phone (being somewhat surprised that during my entire stay at the restaurant-cafe, not one other person took out a phone or a tablet) and continue to watch, listen, scribble notes.

At another large table a family sits down for a coffee and dessert. Two young boys are part of the group. The older, maybe ten, puts his arm protectively around the shoulders of the younger (who is maybe five). He does it in such a matter of fact way. As if saying -- this is my job. This is what I do.

The woman who, like me, is writing, is oblivious to the world. Not me: I am taking it all in. Every table, every story that unfolds around me. But eventually I force myself to pack up and exit. Just a peek, that's all that I can give myself here.  None of the people around me are part of my world. And I cannot ask her, or the others -- who are you really? What is your life like?

So I put away my notebook and move on. To the harbor again! The sun has set...


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The colors are striking!


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And there are so many people now, out for a walk in the cool but still pleasant winter evening! (The temperature reached the fifties during the day. At night, it will dip down to the mid thirties.)

Just a few steps away from the port, a goofy group of musicians is continuing to play for the public. I had seen them earlier in the day and now, in the evening, they're still at it. They'll start with a traditional song and after a few verses, they'll jazz it up in a way that makes you want to bounce with them.

Here they are, playing/singing an old French favorite -- La Mer (the sea).


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Here's a typical onlooker: parent and kid.


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But wait. Did you notice in the previous photo the women to the left of it? As the musicians picked up the beat, one of the women broke away from the group and started dancing to the music.


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As their beat got perky, she swung her cane and did a spin  and then another and it was so deliciously unexpected that really, I have no other story to tell you that can top that one: an old person, enjoying life. If ever I want to reach for an image that will make me smile, this surely would be in the top of the stack: cane swings, woman spins and laughs and laughs.

The thick sliver of a moon shines brightly over Marseille tonight.


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Again I skip dinner in the evening. I stay in my room and munch on cookies and try to make sense of the notes that I scribbled during the day.

Friday, December 06, 2013

Marseille


The Marseille Meal

I'll introduce Marseille to you through her food. Not because it was so over the top that it left me speechless (though it definitely was very, very good!), but because it was my breakfast, lunch and dinner -- all rolled into one. It just sort of happened that way.

I'm not sure the proprietors at Chez Madie (where I ate) where thrilled to seat a new diner at 2 p.m. That's a late hour to start churning out food (France eats lunch between 12 and 2. Not before not after.) But, they sat me down and in the end, one of the waiters even cracked a smile. And almost apologetically, they treated me to some small extras, as if to say -- we want to go home, but, as long as you're here, we want you to have a very good meal.


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(at the table next to mine, winding down the meal, in that rich Marseille sunshine)


And I did have a very good meal. Artichokes, stewed with lardons.


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Fish. (As always in this country -- it's all in the sauce.)



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Creme brulee. With thyme.


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So now that we're all satisfied and satiated, let's roll back the clock to the travel part of the story.


The Trip

Why does it feel like the middle of the night? We are only beginning to cross the Atlantic. It seems like we've been bouncing around the east coast for a very long time.

I am on an Air France flight from Atlanta to Paris and it's with a 3 - 4 - 3 seat configuration. Rare. Most of my long flights are 2 - 4 - 2. Where would you sit, had you the choice, in a 3 - 4 - 3? For me, it's always going to be window, toward the front. But it means that I have to climb over the laps of two to use the facilities. So, who are my two seatmates? One 42, the other (guessing here) 16. They don't know each other, but my oh my do they have a common thread going: one is traveling to Moldova to set up a youth bible camp and the other (the younger one) is traveling (with parents who are elsewhere on the plane) to Africa to establish Christian camps. I ask him where in Africa. He says tentatively, as if he weren't sure, Tanzania.

Why do I choose Air France going to Europe and Delta coming back? Well, because Air France serves abundant champagne with quite okay food and I get to listen to the captain (and anyone else who commands the loudspeaker system) speak French. On the way back, Delta gives me good old friendly American pilots who explain every bump along the way and, too, superb flight attendants. (But the food is on the low end of indifferent.) A flight attendant has to have real seniority on Delta to get the coveted Paris route. So on Paris flights, you get the best of the best.

And here's the truth (because maybe you haven't yet figured this out): I really am only a fair weather flyer. I only like it when the plane doesn't shudder, shake or do other things that in my mind, planes should not do. For example: on this flight, we had a lot of initial turbulence. Now, I know that only one Air France plane in recent history managed to plunge into the ocean when the bumps got out of control, but still, I prefer relatively smooth rides. When the bumps get crazy (this is rare: 95% of my flights are just fine), I remind myself that at least if the pilot messes up,  my daughters will inherit life insurance proceeds, should the unexpected happen. And really, this is the best time EVER to crash, because once I officially retire (January), my life insurance will disappear. So -- crash now or crash later? Obviously now is the preferred choice. I sit back and enjoy the rest of the flight.

Here comes an attendant, all ready to pour the champagne. I once read a story authored by a seasoned reporter who wrote that his idea of a good flight was to drink lots of champagne at take off, fall asleep thereafter (presumably as a result of all that champagne) and wake up when the landing gear is engaged. Okay, but as I grow older, I realize that all that Air France free wine and champagne are probably what keeps me from sleeping for more than a few minutes -- between Greenland and Iceland, but not otherwise. Life really does seem to be all about choices.

On this long flight, I do eventually have to climb over the laps of the two men heading out to instill God in the hearts of people living far away. It's awkward, but I do it. And then I get stuck in the aisle behind the cart that's slowly moving down to pick up trays. As I pause by a row, waiting for the cart to resume its journey to the back of the plane, a passenger leans over and asks me to ask the attendant for more white wine. Ha! Guess who wont be sleeping well tonight! Dutifully though, I ask, but the Air France attendant says they ran out.
Would you like red wine? -- she asks the thirsty passenger and it sounds French even though it's in English.
The passenger answers - how about a gin and tonic instead?
Can you blame her? Here we are, in the air for two hours, with some violent turbulence thrown in for your entertainment and we have yet to start crossing the Atlantic! Overseas flights from Atlanta are always discouraging: it takes a while before the plane actually begins to head east.

But the transatlantic flight, though long, wasn't really causing me headaches.

 Nor am I too concerned about the short connecting time at the Paris airport. I plan on picking up a coffee and a croissant, even if there are only a handful of minutes between flights. I do a lot of running between terminal E and terminal F.  And I do pick up the coffee and the croissant, but then I kick myself for stupidly risking the connection and abandon the project in mid-bite. I post this picture as living proof that I really did try to grab a breakfast, and, too, because it is the first time that i am holding a copy of the International NYT (it was still the International Herald Tribune when I was last in Europe), and because the front page story and photo are about the winds blowing through northern Europe. But these are not the Mistral. The Mistral is purely a southern France deal.


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And wouldn't you know it, the vicious Mistral has been in the forecast for this one day for a long time now. With gusts upwards of 50mph.

The captain on the final Marseille bound flight comes on to whisper to us (Air France captains whisper; French people must have better hearing than Americans) that the flight will be a short 60 minutes, but the landing will be rocky. The Mistral, he says. You need go no further. Everyone knows about le Mistral.

But here, luck is with me: the wind doesn't kick ass until after noon. We land with a few shudders -- nothing more than that.


So do I really love going overseas so much that I can toil through these flights that are so long and so often not without issues? Yes. I love it that much.


The City

When I stepped off the final flight and looked up at that wonderful blue sky, I really, for the first time, understood how tightly I'd been wound up in the past months. It took that ocean crossing for me to finally begin to stop clenching my gut, fist and brain all at once.

Of course, I did not sleep much and so I arrive in Marseille tired. But the good news is that I combat tiredness by walking. Walk walk walk and look and think nothing at all, just look and walk and slowly the life of the city (or village or wherever I may be) will take over and the tiredness will recede.

But first, I must find my Bed and Breakfast. I take the metro to almost the last stop. Here's a photo of probably the busiest station (Saint Charles is Marseille's train station). Different from Paris, isn't it?


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Les Acanthes

I'm staying  at a tiny (3 rooms?) bed and breakfast: Les Acanthes. And it's a wonderful place, run by the ever chipper and helpful Odile.

By accident, I got a splendidly sunny upstairs room (in a moment of absent mindedness, Odile gave my lesser room to another visitor). Thank you, Odile!


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Marseille, like all the Mediterranean towns and villages, boasts 300 days of sunshine. I'm getting plenty of it this weekend!


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(from my window)


Along with the wind. Odile says -- we had all the leaves on the vines yesterday! Today, they are mostly gone.


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Back to the City

I'm settled, I'm washed up, I'm ready to go. But first the meal. You read about that already. Next comes the walk.

Do you know Marseille? The focal point is the old harbor, extending like an elongated U around a protected water. You can't help but think -- are there this many boats in the world? Really this many?


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I could have headed into the narrow streets of the old town, but I put it off. Instead, I walked a long long way along the water's edge, pushing against the devilish Mistral. Not surprisingly, there weren't many people out and about. But every once in a while, a car would pull up and someone would pop out with a mobile phone or i-tablet to take a photos of the raging waters. The hair is flying, the wind slashing at the face... and still, you want to get out and get that photo!


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You don't often see the Mediterranean in such an agitated, hazy crazy state.


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Even as if you looked inland, you'd never believe that we are having a monstrously windy day.


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If I continued walking along the coastal path, in about eight hours I would come to the town of Cassis. Five years ago, Ed and I spent a terrific winter break there. It's tempting to do the hike tomorrow or the next day, but I'm resisting the impulse to always leave a city that I am visiting. Marseille was named the European Cultural Capital of 2013. She is in her glory now. I should give her a fair hearing.

Even as I am a little disappointed at how cleaned up Marseille is. My associations have always had this city on the edge. Sort of like a European version of Tangiers: spilling over with commerce and trade from Africa and elsewhere. With cheap rents and rickety chairs around wobbly tables in cafe bars. And neighborhoods to avoid, like in Miami. Instead, it seems so... orderly. Eh, I need to walk inland more and save my judgment for when I will have figured out what it means these days to be from Marseille.

In the meantime, a few last photos for you. Of the bakery where I bought cookies for evening supper back in my room. Not these cookies, but still, close enough.


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...Of a fragment of a skyline, picking up the hues of the setting sun.


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...Of the ferris wheel, now adding light and movement to the old harbor...


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Time for me to get back to Les Acanthes. Nearly fifty student emails to attend to. And a post to write.

The moon -- or a quarter slice of it -- shines brightly over this windy city tonight.


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Thursday, December 05, 2013

leaving

Oh yes, I'm off now. The funny thing is that I planned this little trip (and bought tickets for it) before I decided that for sure this would be my last semester of teaching. The trip parallels my typical December pattern of exiting immediately after classes end (and before the exams come in for grading). Though in the past dozen years, the goal had been to be in Poland. This trip is as all others, but without the Poland part.

Well, no trip is as all others. Yes, I'll be in France, but I will be stopping first in Marseille and I've never spent time there -- it's been a pass through place in the past. Because I'm without Ed, I'm concentrating on the more urban places, but with possible quick exits into the country. I'm leaving that open.

Leaving that open -- that's a lovely phrase. As if the burden of something has been lifted. It feels that way, even as right now it's just another end of a semester, and another trip to clear my mind and refocus. Which, for me, is best accomplished when I look at life as it is lived elsewhere, by others.


At the farmette, the fog has lifted and a deep chill has set in. Ed comments -- if you stayed, we could go skiing as soon as there's snow! We torture ourselves in this way on the occasions that I go off without him.
There is no snow -- I remind him. And of course, I'll be back in ten days. Plenty of time to take in any snow then.


I wish I could give you a photo of the beloved farmhouse...

...and of our beloved breakfast...

...but I am at an airport where uploading is not possible. Imagine them! Remember them!


So I'm off. Via Paris, to Marseille, where they say the winds are gusting fiercely. The Mistral is having a hellish time of it, just as I arrive!

I'll write next from the other side of the ocean.

[A note to all the lovely comments and emails that came from you: I smiled at them all! Thank you.]

Wednesday, December 04, 2013

stars moons and hearts

Oh, I've been thinking about it for a long time -- what will it be like? To stand before a roomful of students one last time? Seventy faces (today's class), some very familiar, from multiple previous classes, some just for this semester, a fleeting encounter and puff, gone?

I woke up early and thought about it.

And as I worked on the final draft of the exam (done!) -- I thought about it.

Too, at breakfast.


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And on my drive to Clasen's Bakery to buy multiple dozens of hearts, suns and moons (chocolate covered gingerbread that they only sell for three weeks out of the year -- it's a treat that I associate very much with Poland, where they sell it year-round), I thought about it.


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During office hours, I had a delightful trickle of students asking numerous questions. They lingered, commenting, as always, on the gorgeous view from office onto Bascom Mall. I thought about that as well. And about other singularly wonderful views in my office.


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Cards trickled in from thoughtful students, emails from friends. A gift of chocolate peppermint candy. It was that kind of a day.

My office neighbors on my floor baked a cake and brought it to me. Various sundry others showed up...


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And the emotions were beginning to swell.

Yet, when I taught, the emotions subsided. They always do. When I teach... or rather, when I taught -- it's in the past now! -- my one focus is on the job at hand. Even though I have often thought that the job at hand is hard to define. Am I teaching them material? Or to learn? Or anything at all? Maybe I am teaching them nothing more than to be enthusiastic about life! (Because people will tell you -- if I am anything... if I was anything, it was that I am/was enthusiastic!)

They ate hearts, moons and stars and I ended my lecture with Szymborska poems. I've ended a class with poems before, but today they had meaning beyond the words. Poems. Remember me for the poems! (Which ones did I give them today? Well, one was on Death. Whaaaaat? -- you say. Well, it's a class about "Trusts and Estates" after all. We've mentioned death a lot this semester! But truly, the poem is more about life. Here, judge it for yourself.)

On Death, Without Exaggeration

It can't take a joke,
find a star, make a bridge.
It knows nothing about weaving, mining, farming,
building ships, or baking cakes.
In our planning for tomorrow,
it has the final word,
which is always beside the point.

It can't even get the things done
that are part of its trade:
dig a grave,
make a coffin,
clean up after itself.

Preoccupied with killing,
it does the job awkwardly,
without system or skill.
As though each of us were its first kill.

Oh, it has its triumphs,
but look at its countless defeats,
missed blows,
and repeat attempts!

Sometimes it isn't strong enough
to swat a fly from the air.
Many are the caterpillars
that have outcrawled it.

All those bulbs, pods,
tentacles, fins, tracheae,
nuptial plumage, and winter fur
show that it has fallen behind
with its halfhearted work.

Ill will won't help
and even our lending a hand with wars and coups d'etat
is so far not enough.

Hearts beat inside eggs.
Babies' skeletons grow.
Seeds, hard at work, sprout their first tiny pair of leaves
and sometimes even tall trees fall away.

Whoever claims that it's omnipotent
is himself living proof
that it's not.

There's no life
that couldn't be immortal
if only for a moment.

Death
always arrives by that very moment too late.

In vain it tugs at the knob
of the invisible door.
As far as you've come
cannot be undone.


And because life moves us forward, the class hours ended and I tidied up a bit and picked up my pair of good shoes and packed them in my bag to take home. I wont be vacating the office until January 10 (150 exams to grade!), but I wont be needing good shoes there anymore. That act of packing shoes felt final.

Life moves forward to the next hour and the next. Late in the evening I go to help my girl with the Christmas tree.


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We eat Laotian food and listen to Christmas songs and Goldie the cat looks on.


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Yes, as far as I've come cannot be undone...


[I fly out tomorrow. Be patient as I navigate a travel schedule. I'll post, but there may be hiccups.]