Friday, April 04, 2008

from Cambridge: spring East

A seasonal (spring) visit to a daughter. I pick a time that’s perhaps a touch close to winter, but the other months of spring are not good visiting months for either of us. Besides, this is April – an enduring favorite month of mine.

Spring, of course, is a social construct. Forget calendar dates and such markers as length of daylight or appearance of migratory birds. That’s all too encyclopedic. And misleading. For example, Wikipedia would probably argue that April 1st belongs to spring. We know better, back in Madison. April 1st had a solid winter stink to it (to put it bluntly). But April 2nd – springtime! Giddy, effervescent, crocus-spotted spring.


My flight takes off and I look down. Brown, with specs of white. Well, it’s early in the season.


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In Boston, too, I’m reminded of just how early. It’s raining. It’s foggy. It’s, well, cool.

And yet… ahhhh! No doubt. Spring.


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Thursday, April 03, 2008

the interesting world of the red-winged blackbird

I read on Wikipedia that this bird is migratory, traveling north in good times. And that he comes here to stake out turf for his sweetie-tweetie. Actually for a bunch of them. He likes to populate his turf with a selection of sweetie-tweeties. But then she comes and messes with him. She hooks up with other males, producing a hatch of eggs of mixed paternity.

I watched birds up close and personal today on my ride back from work. It wasn’t especially a comfortable ride since the temps had dropped from yesterdays pleasantries.

Still, the birds made me slow down and take note.

For instance, this duck. So beautiful in his solitary stance. I mean, it gives hope, no?


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Then, there are the gulls. I don’t really understand why we have gulls in Madison, since I associate gulls with, well, oceans, but we do have gulls. And they appear to stand on water.


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But I digress. Further down the path I encountered the red-wing blackbird. I looked him in the eye and he seemed to be saying – the hell with you, I know what I’m doing. And yet, he was such a sweet little thing. Huggable almost…



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Life. Birds, humans – we’re all part of this great big planet, aren’t we?

Wednesday, April 02, 2008

it’s time

I’m thinking – let’s not get soft here. Time to ditch the bus and start biking to work. My bicycle is refreshed, ready.

I bundle up. I understand my limitations. Wind blows and I get cold.

I set out. I am so bundled that I can hardly turn to spot the traffic. Still, I zip through Shorewood, across the field and onto the lake path. Ah, the lake path. So romantic.


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So muddy.

I am covered with dreadful yellow grit. My bike has a case of yellow speckled fever. It’s all rather disgusting. The handbrakes sound grimy and unpleasant.

I’m not complaining really. I am hot from the four mile ride. But it’s a splendid ride. Good bye buses. See you next November.

(On the way home, I avoid the lake path. To be rewarded with this..


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…and this…)


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Tuesday, April 01, 2008

forgiving

Who in your life does not elicit a surge of charitable feeling? (In your life. Not at large, out there. There are plenty of people out there who do terrible deeds that are, in my mind indefensible.)

Over time, I even thought that the boy I had a crush on throughout highschool was pretty tame in his mishandling of my affection. After all, what does a teen age boy know about the strength and devotion of a somewhat younger teen age girl passionately in love with him? (Or so she thought then.) Surely there's room for missteps.

Still, I think we are not a generous species. An ant tramples over another ant and they wink at each other and march on in perfect formation. Oops, sorry! No, not even that. Ants don't speak.

People? My God. First misstep and they're semi okay with it. Second? Well... Third? Forget you. Unforgivable. Even if you can demonstrate that the misstep was really the result of your having plugged the wrong information into mapquest. I made a mistake! Kill me for it!

Okay. Poof!


Something to mull over on yet another Tuesday where I cannot deliver much of anything specific here on Ocean. Too much work, too much worry.

For today: a photo shot from my evening walk to the local election polling place. There's a lot to be said for that walk. It didn't accomplish much, substantively speaking. Results are coming in and it looks as if my candidate isn't doing too well... But the weather was gorgeous! 7 pm and still light outside. Sun dappled trees. If you forget about all evil thoughts you harbor about anyone(or, if you have none), you can indeed call it a perfect moment. So for me, it was a perfect moment.


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Monday, March 31, 2008

wet

If I’m to live up to my self-ascribed trait of being adaptable, then I must be willing to adjust to anything thrown my way, right?

So, love that cold drizzle!


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Sunday, March 30, 2008

nesting and lambing

To me, nesting is about setting up a home and attending to it. To Ed, nesting is about wanting to have chickens running around his farmette.

My enthusiasm for chickens is low. When I lived with my grandparents in the deep countryside of Poland, the neighbor’s chickens depleted the meadowland of grass and left a trail of droppings so fierce that you could not side step it. Not good news for a little kid who liked to run around barefoot.

Today, the chicken issue came up again. We never set out to look at chickens. They just sort of presented themselves.


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We were at a nearby farm (A-Z Farm) that opened its doors to the public today to show off its incredible haul of little lambs: 62 moms gave birth so far this season, 53 still waiting to deliver.

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It was a wonderful, wonderful sight. Two day old lambs? Your heart wouldn’t melt? Your fingers wouldn’t reach for the fuzzy little head?


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And the sight of the lambs chasing their mommies for a sip of milk! It brought back memories of feeding the very young…


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come on, mom! get up and play!


What I could not tear myself away from was the pen with the pregnant moms. Their discomfort became my discomfort. Some looked like they were on the brink (as indeed they were) and I thought it worth my time to stand, watch and wait.


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…until a woman came up to me and whispered. Listen, I’ve been coming here for four years and I have yet to see one born when I’m here.

I’m so transparent.

There were other farm animals. Baby calves (2 days old), baby goats, pigs and chicks. A farmer shows us this one:


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...yes, sure. Cute.

In the way that my heart and soul goes out to the sheep mamas and their babies, Ed’s attention is on the chickens. I expect he’ll be carting a few home soon. I’m hoping to fall in love with them. I mean, they’re not quite like the lambs, but still… fresh eggs, daily, a sweet little hen in my lap… there are some good images out there. The man could have wanted to raise pigeons. Chickens are tons better than pigeons.

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Saturday, March 29, 2008

sometimes

…you feel an upsurge of optimism when none is warranted. I’m writing about weather, but I’m thinking of non-weather episodes. The yes! moment, when you break through a thick fog and surge forward.

And then, next morning, visibility is down to near zero again. If you pardon the weather analogue.

Okay, no more about fog.

I cleaned my red Mr. Giant today. Ed, the bike expert, lubricated the chain and gave me appropriate rags and twigs to wipe out five months’ worth of grime and dust on the body. And we set out to do a small ride. Country road, take me home...

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I got cold. In Paoli, I sought refuge in an art gallery, just to take the red out of my nose.


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On the ride back, the chill in my face and limbs receded a little. But really, it was not a warm and sunny time.

Friday, March 28, 2008

week-end high

It’s true. I’m not home for many week-ends of the year. Especially in Spring. I’m never home in Spring. It must be that way. And, it must be that my being away for significant periods of time (in May, June, part of July) is during, arguably, the nicest months in Madison. I cannot complain. No one forces me to head east or west or anywhere, for that matter.

But this is why I am so anxious about the weather now. I hope for perfection on the weekends I am here.

Today was a March version of perfection. I couldn’t really take advantage of it. It’s not quite the week-end. But I celebrated by staring long and hard at these (I was there late in the day, repotting my own orchid):

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..and then by sitting out on my balcony watching the sun go down.

Imagine (all you there in the sun belt)! For the first time in 08, I sat out on my balcony. (Truthfully, I was in my fleecy wrap, snuggled. Much like the orchid below. But still…)


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Thursday, March 27, 2008

and today

how’s this for sad?


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Wednesday, March 26, 2008

window

Seize the day! Roll up your sleeves, go play on the big lawn, dance, dance, frolic!

Because tomorrow it may snow.

(I myself did none of the above. Wednesdays are work days with few windows for air. Indeed, only from my office window am I able to see others take better care to keep the season alive.)


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Tuesday, March 25, 2008

fifty!

No, not my age. I left that number some years back. Okay, but the air! Did you feel that spring vibe?

I leave the Law School and I pass a colleague smiling. The world is smiling. Fifty!

For the first time in months, I get in the car and head out to the fields. South of Madison. Right now, it’s no use looking for spring. The cornfields are still so… last year.


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The stand built by the Hmong family of farmers? Deserted, surrounded by dried leftovers from fall. (But note the puddles, the melting snow...)


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Hey, people, it hit fifty!


A young one is out, finding the leftovers from last fall quite tasty.


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She sees me, hesitates, and continues working away at the cob.


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I want to see her in flight, but I cannot get myself to blast the horn, shout out, or do anything that would clearly startle her.


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But, she startles nonetheless. And flees.

What a gorgeous day! Did I mention that we hit fifty on the thermometer?
(Yesterday? Was I concerned about something? Can’t remember…)

Monday, March 24, 2008

thin

It bugs me when I sit down to write a post and realize that every thought I had all day long is not blog-worthy. Usually (and today is no exception) this says something about how the mind (my mind) can wrap itself around just one theme and percolate around it all day (obsess is another choice word that could be used here). To no avail.

There are in this world, I think, two types: those who obsess and those who block. I’m with the second camp most of the time. But today, I tasted life on the other side.

Let’s hope for a quick return to blocking and, therefore, blogging tomorrow.

Sunday, March 23, 2008

searching

At 1 p.m., Ed and I happen to find ourselves in the Visitor Center of the Arboretum. I notice that a guided walk is about to begin. The theme? “The return of the whooping crane and other signs of spring.”

Sounds good on paper, but with a thick covering of snow, the walk cannot progress as planned. The naturalist suggests that instead, the small group seek out animal prints in the snow.

What a let down to the participants! A spring walk, transformed into a winter stalk. And a glorious Easter to you, too, over there in the sun belt!

We set out on our own. I know the Arboretum well. You could say that it has held hostage the high points and low points in my life. But today, I just want to find my own spring.

Maybe this: melting snow in boggy growth. Good enough?


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No… We trudge further. As boggy growth spreads into crab shrubs and who knows what else, we encounter a symphony, a carnival of birds – cardinals, robins, upside down chickadees – I name only the ones I recognize…


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It is an exhilarating moment.

I wish I could say that the day was made supremely beautiful thereafter, but in fact, by dusk, the chirpiness faded and reality set in.

Besides, soon after, it began to snow.

Saturday, March 22, 2008

coming home

The last flight puts me into Madison at 1 a.m. Late, but only two hours behind schedule. And who could complain, considering that most flights here had been cancelled.

I sit next to a seasoned Northwest flight attendant. She’s heading home to Milwaukee – her fiancée is driving down to Madison to pick her up (all flights to Milwaukee were cancelled). She’s tired, having worked the Manila and Tokyo routes. But her make up and clothes are perfect – made to last, not a crease.

She’s not yet ready to drift off into a nap and so we exchange the fleeting comment you throw out when a full paragraph of thoughts seems like too much effort.

I like traveling to Europe best, but a three-day Asia run pays better.
Planes are full. Do you get to work business class a lot?

You bid and seniority puts you where you want to be in the cabin. I prefer coach.
Really?
I think of the transatlantic flights, always packed in the sardine class, with tired, edgy travelers…
Yes. In coach, you give them a drink and dinner and that’s it. In business, you are on your feet serving every need – it’s a different job. And the people… She shakes her head.

We’re standing in some part of the Detroit airport, waiting for a thorough deicing (note: on the second day of spring).
The crew should explain what’s going on, she comments, almost to herself. There you have it! A call for a flight attendant! Someone is anxious.

We wait another half hour and finally, we take off for the short flight.
It isn’t as much fun to work the flights these days.
I’m sympathetic. It isn’t as much fun to fly either. To me, fun is measured in terms of leg room. Every inch adds a modicum of fun. As a frequent flyer, I get to pick premium seats – bulk head, exit row. Without that benefit, these multi-leg journeys would be … not fun at all.

Going through bankruptcy was tough. We all took a 40% cut in salary. Now I’m finally earning the same as a dozen years ago.
Again, she’s found a sympathetic ear. When you work for the state, you forget that in some spheres, salaries actually go up and your spending power increases over the years.

The snow is still coming down hard. The city looks as it did in December, January, February. And yet – it’s not so cold. In spite of it all, there’s hope.

The next day I venture out and give a small grin to the trees just out the door. Not for long. You wont look like this next week.


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Friday, March 21, 2008

from Puerto Rico: heading south

We should stay longer, I say provocatively on Thursday morning, our last full day on the island.

But several hours on the phone with various airlines underscores the stupidity of trying to prolong a spring break getaway. The cost of making changes scares us, especially Ed, away from going any further with this idea.

Still, we want to at least taste a different part of the island. The northeastern tip has a beautiful rainforest, true, but the rest of the space is densely settled. It doesn’t invite a quiet, contemplative ramble, for example. And so we decided to head south toward Ponce.

The highway that cuts through the mountains of central P.R. makes this an easy trip, even if we do get a late start on things. Back to San Juan, then up to the top of the range, then down again. Two hours later, we are in a different world.


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We get off the highway as it touches the southern coast. The air is hot and dry, the sun is intense. The coastal local road passes through villages that are barely that.


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Houses are small and they vary from teetering and run down, to quite pretty and very colorful. All make great use of windows and shades to create a flow of air. I don’t see a single A.C. unit. I am at one with these people!

At the side of the road, someone is having a snack. I'm thinking that our own breakfast (slightly less reptilian) was many hours ago.

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In one hamlet, we pick up a narrow lane that heads toward a slip of land jutting into the Caribbean waters. Mangroves, Ed tells me. Ever since our plans to kayak the Everglades fell through, I have wanted to get a feel for these trees with salt water roots. We set out on foot, keeping away from the muddy inlets.

The area is enchanting if you can overcome your aversion to the occasional litter – an abandoned refrigerator, plastic, always the plastic, coke cans, worn out shoes. Ed tells me that in his sails to even the most remote islands, he’d find litter washed ashore. Plastic is a forever kind of menace.

If anything, it reminds me of how much each one of us has contributed to messing up the planet and how good it would be if we all rolled up our sleeves and cleaned it up. You know, so that the grandkids can run through sand and not see a single coke can. Dreams.

Still, the area is nowhere near as littered as the roadsides in the toe of southern Italy. The trash is an occasional thing, rather than an out and out eyesore.

We walk through the dryer section of the mangrove forest and the sun is really intense here. The still waters take on the colors of a swamp.


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The noise of birds and the rustle of fleeing reptiles are evocative. At one point, I smell something rotting and I ask Ed ( in all seriousness) if there might be a corpse further in the swamp. He gives this a minute of thought. Maybe, he tells me.

There is a small path that leads us right at the water’s edge. It’s an absolutely perfect spot. There is a small barrier of sand and shell, creating a walkable, knee-deep sea wall of sorts. Ed and I wade out into the sea.


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The shoreline is stunning from this vantage point, as are the islands of mangroves to the side.


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We take a while to watch a crab move along the brittle sea floor and the pelicans do their hunting act, searching for schools of fish, falling with a big splash into the water upon finding one.


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It’s getting to be late and we still want to see Ponce. We get back to the car and head further west.

I hear that Ponce is the self-proclaimed capital of this region. It’s a pretty little town. The old square with a stark white church surrounded by pastel buildings. The branching streets, equally pretty, have a feel of a slower pace. I like slow.


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It does lack, in my mind, a café life, but that’s just me, not being able to imagine that a place with this kind of climate would not want to push everyone outdoors all the time. We do find a (indoor) spot for coffee just off the square and I settle for a small cubana (I swear she called it that) but con leche and Ed digs into a flan. The sole other patron orders something similar.


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I read that the old Ponce harbor has been revamped, forming a nice public space and so we drive down to stroll there with the local folk: up the boardwalk and back again. The food stalls are a tad more spiffy than those along the northeastern coast, though the food is the same – fried seafoods, plantains, pastries filled with meat.

Along the dock, pelicans boldly vie for the attention of the visitors. They want an easy catch and the fish here are too big even for their voluptuous throats.


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It’s an enchanting scene.

But I notice it’s already 5 and we need to make our way back to San Juan. I have one of those dawn flights out the next day. Four flights, actually. Ed managed to land a direct route from San Juan to Chicago. Me, I have to do it the hard way – with stops in Georgia, Florida and Michigan. Hoping to land in Madison, in spite of the blizzard. (Blizzard??? Are we for real???)

At the last minute, we book a room at the edge of old San Juan. It probably is a mistake. The hotel, with its casino, is exactly the type that would turn both of us off (big, very air conditioned, very loud). But I want to have at least a few night hours in the old city.

You have to know your limits. Put us in a room in a jungle, where the only sound is of birds cackling outside and the only cooling agent is a breeze passing from one window to the next, with the luxury of free WiFi too boot and we’re happy as anything. But here, in old San Juan, where Ed steps out onto the street because the pavement is too narrow to accommodate the crowds and gets bumped by a car trying to squeeze through, where every few blocks, you have the beggar, asking for money, because there are just so many people who obviously have it – makes us (and eureka! -- Ed and I are similar in this way) feel sad and weighed down.

It doesn’t help that the hotel charges for Internet in the room and so we huddle outside the (jarring and loud) casino to access the free WiFi there. And BTW, I have never in my life been inside a casino. Ed suggests that I use this opportunity to look. I do. Never again.

Still, I’m not complaining. We saw old San Juan at night.


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We ate tapas in an old courtyard, by the light of the (full?) moon and I had the best mojitos to accompany my fried langostino pockets (note to Tim: could not, could not find your family's standard fare!).

In the morning, Ed drives me to the airport. He is like that. Never complaining about a simple act of kindness. Especially if it saves money.

My plane takes off and I look down at this unique Caribbean island – American, not American. Warm, in all ways.

A grand trip.