Monday

No need to ask about the weather, right? It is what it is.

 

Feeling fitful and rested, I start in on breakfast.

Except that I did not want to wake Ed. And then boom! The phone rang for him and he was off on one of his technical calls that lasted hours. Not wanting to interrupt, I ate alone. A good thing, as he didn't get around to his granola until in the afternoon.

 

The nice man from my bike shop came. (He is from the place I had purchased Alpine Blue -- the bike, not the car, which I confused the other day; I believe my car is named Blue Moon. Alpine Blue is the e-bike.) Like the car, this pretty little thing needs periodic tune ups. Too, I had whacked the wheel out of its trueness when I swerved the other day and so it needs additional fixes. Too, they'll clean it up. After the weekend ride over wintry terrain, it is one big muddy mess.

 

I work on my computer as Ed works on his machine design and before you know it, it's time to pick up the girl.

 

Happy child. I dont ask this of my grandkids -- after all, I'm not happy all the time and neither are you. Nonetheless, Snowdrop is a smiler in life. Easily made joyful, content to do the simplest thing. 

Like reading, which is our staple. Or, on occasion, bugging Ed about his computer.

After she leaves, I return to my work, Ed returns to his machine design. We are lost to the world, to the weather (dont ask), to the demands of the day, until hunger drives us to give it up for a bit. Dinner -- reheated stuff. It's Monday, official leftover day at the farmhouse!

with love...

Sunday

I've thought of a new strategy to combat this never ending drippy, gloomy weather, without adequate snow or sunshine: ignore it. If someone asks you -- what are the temps this afternoon? -- respond with "I don't really know." Comments like "sure is nasty outside" directed to you? Look surprised and respond "I haven't actually noticed." 

I'll give it a try.

We are in a bit of slump this morning because Ed picked up a version of The Bug and if you know him, you'll know that he is never at his rational even-tempered delightful self when he is under the weather. He locks himself inside his own world and ignores pretty much everything and everyone else. Like me, he does not like to discuss his physical shortcomings and failures and so we move through the day second guessing each others issues, or ignoring them altogether, while the cats stare at us in bewilderment, wondering why the sudden stillness in the air, the silence, the lack oh human sound.

Come on, cats. Let's go out to the barn. Hens are hungry.

The best part of breakfast (not to eat, but to admire) is the basket of forced bulbs. They don't last long, but when they're in bloom, you feel like hugging the world.

After that, Ed rests, I attend to stuff. Someone has to! When was the last time I cleaned the house anyway??

 

In the evening the young family is here for dinner. Ed is dis-invited due to his potential germyness. 

It's good to see them all in one place again. I've had sightings of Sandpiper and the young parents throughout the week, but on Sundays, no one is in a rush to get anywhere and the sweet warmth and predictability of the evening are its huge charm.

(the boys are the cheese and cracker guys!)

(can she still be held??)

Later, much later, Ed claims he is feeling better but you can't tell for sure because, well, you know, we are quiet about the bothersome details of our physical well being. I thought this might be the perfect evening for me to rewatch some dopey show alone while he rests, but no! He's up for Ted Lasso. After a very bothersome night, morning and afternoon, I'd say we're back on track to being very content.

With love...

Saturday

Yes, it was misty cold and damp on my morning walk to the barn. Nothing new there.

But just a few minutes later, I had a peak at what life will be like once the cloud cover lifts and moves on and our usual brisk winter weather returns. Here, take a look out my car window as I drive to Madison Sourdough because I have an inexplicable yearning for a cinnamon roll for breakfast. Note that the cupola of the Capitol is completely lost in a foggy cloud. (And by the way, that strip of blue sky was visible today for all of.... a handful of minutes.)

It was so lovely to see that play of mist and faint sun that I almost parked the car and got out to admire it up close, by the shores of Lake Monona. But in the end I drove on. Like I said, the yearning for that breakfast roll was so strong...

(Breakfast)

I did think that even with the return of the gray skies, we could challenge ourselves today and go out for a bike ride. Yes, I know it's January. Yes, I know it's just a smidge above freezing. That the roads have slush at the sides and sudden patches of melted ice. Nonetheless, I love the challenge it presents!  Just interesting enough to lift us out of our winter lethargy.

I dress for the occasion. Ed, in shorts, asks -- are you going biking or skiing? You mean there's a difference?

In the end, it's a fabulous (if at times challenging and cold) ride.

As we pause by Lake Waubesa, I watch two brave souls go out to ice fish. There are warnings in the press about the lakes right now. People are nuts! -- I say to Ed, as we push our bikes through a slushy bit of driveway. Um, yes they/we are.

And the rest of the day? Much of it is spent reviewing my daylily situation. The chickens have substantially messed up the bed by the driveway and I need to do some replacement planting there. (And I swear, I'll butcher the whole lot of them if they go after any new planting!) (Just kidding.) Too, I check in with my best lily supplier (Oakes Daylilies) to see what's new this year. And I order some prairie plants. So yes, one foot in the garden already. Delivery scheduled for late April. That's three months from now! Can you believe it? I'll be up to my knees in mud, shovel in hand, in just three months.

In the meantime, I make soup for supper. Hot and nourishing. With collards and cannellini beans. Sprinkled with parmesan. A winter favorite. Because, well, it is still winter.

 

Friday

You have to pull out all the stops to like a day like this: wet and cold and gray, with an exclamation point! Snowdrop said yesterday -- I like snow, but I like it when it's clean and fresh and not soggy and dirty. Well said. Unfortunately, we are in for a spell of soggy and dirty. Consider the morning walk to the barn:

I brought the last of my tubs of forced bulbs to the breakfast table. All the stops, I tell you!

It is impossible to get excited about a walk in the park, so I head out for just a few minutes, with my rain jacket, into the new development. With a rain jacket, in January, in Wisconsin! It really messes with your sense of time and place, but there you have it -- we are stuck in a cloud of weird warm soggy air.

I do try to focus on garden planning, but I have to say, I'm only modestly excited about it. As my beds shrink from the encroaching shade, I feel that my aspirations also have to shrink. Too, I'm no longer expanding the reach of my planting. Last year I barely kept up with the fields currently under my care. (Well, truthfully, I did not keep up with the ones furthest from the farmhouse. In the fall I took the tractor out there and mowed down the weeds that had taken over!) Still, I will admit to being excited about the coming of the growing season. This winter isn't exactly tough on us here at the farmette, but nor is it a stellar one, with the crisp landscapes and pale blue skies that we love so much at this time of the year. So yes, l'll be looking forward to spring along with everyone else. Two more months!

And in the afternoon, the kids are here, for their usual Friday eat-read-violin-ballet sequence. 

The pick-up, the time at the farmhouse -- it all seems like a repetition of the same each day, doesn't it? In truth, it's not. Snowdrop and Sparrow are getting older and the conversational dynamics are changing. Snowdrop raises topics that dont deserve pat answers and cant be sidestepped easily. Too, we're continuing with a book that puts us right into the bombing of England during World War II. Another set of issues for us to talk about. Sparrow tunes in, tunes out. You never know when he is fully present, in the way that younger sibs are even when you're talking about stuff that is beyond their immediate comprehension. War? Child abuse and neglect? What does he make of that? And the more mundane topics -- class dynamics. His are difinitive recounts: he has a good day with friends or he doesn't. And the "not so good" days are never bad, it's just that nothing stands out in his memory. So we juggle it all and in doing so I watch these two grow up and I have to say, this, to me is the best part of parenting or grandparenting -- when you can help these young ones sort through perplexing topics so that there is always clarity and hope for them.

I come home late on Fridays. This is the perfect day for reheating foods. And I do. And it feels warm and comforting to sit down with Ed over bowls of farro, as we laugh a little at funny moments of Ted Lasso on the big screen. The week is done. All's fine with our little world. 

with love....

Thursday

Little lemons, that's what I call them: the little lemons of a January day.

Take the weather: stuck at foggy, drippy, cold, wet. There will not be a different photo for you from my morning walk. It will be a repeat of the same, every day, because that's what the weather will be like for the next two weeks.

(the marching band...)

Breakfast: I'm feeling like I should return to oatmeal. Step aside, croissants, I need to get back to a healthier start to the day.

I have an appointment for a 30 000 mile checkup on the car. I drive up, ready to relinquish Alpine Blue for a couple of hours and am told that it will take the whole day. The whole day? I can't be without a car for the whole day! Ed's out at work and I have kids to pick up. And what is it that you need to do that requires a whole day? I'm given a list and a price tag. Whoaaaaaa! I will have spent ten percent of the cost of the car on maintenance this week! Why cant we have better public transportation in place anyway? Cars cars cars! We rely on them, we need them, we cant live without them and we spent a fortune on making them safe. (Nice big squeeze on my little lemon here!)

I reschedule the tune up for a weekend day and go back home, where all these little lemons lead me to bake lemon blueberry muffins. Because when life throws you little lemons, you may as well bake these muffins.

On the upside, the kids are up and running and I am back in the pick up line waiting for them.

(Off come the coats! Neither kid likes to sit in a car with coat on...)

And we come to the farmhouse and it all feels so normal again!

Well, except for the drizzle, the fog, the kind of stuff you're okay with in November, but not now, not in crisp January! 

I've made a batch of farro with cauliflower, tomatoes, and parmesan. A perfect comfy food. No lemon juice for this one. Warm and cozy, familiar and delicious!

 Okay, I'm ready for another day of drizzle, fog, and cat fights, and chickens messing up our walkway. It's all good. Really truly.

Wednesday

The amaryllis burst into full bloom this morning. Yes, the bulb that I sort of hoped would bring a bit of color to the Christmas table. The one I planted too late because I was too busy. Or something. And I have to say, I appreciate its beauty all the more now, when there is nothing to be said about the landscape outside the window. Sure, there's snow, but it's wet, melting and getting to be a little messy at the sides. And on top of that, it's a foggy morning, so the world looks a little out of focus on my morning walk to the barn.

So, yay amaryllis! 

Ed comes late to the breakfast table. Once again, we talk about the cats. There was another brawl with Pancake last night (he's the black and white recent addition to the farmette lot). Pancake looks a little worse for wear today, and still, I think he's the one who starts the fights. For some reason most of the cats do not like Unfriendly and Pancake is no exception here. When Unfriendly tries to return home, Pancake stands in the way. The fighting begins.

And there is nothing we can do about it.

 

I spend the day working on a photo book. I have the time for it because two out of the three Madison grandkids have come down with The Bug and the third is just barely over his version of it. Grandparents are not good candidates for babysitting virus stricken kids, since whatever the kids have is likely to pass quickly for them and not so quickly for those pushing the eighth decade. So once again I have no picking up duties today. It's weird -- for three weeks, I have been with some portion of the grandkids pretty much every single day and now for three days I have been without them. Call it a pause. Tomorrow, I'm sure we'll return to a real "normal."

I do go out to shop at the grocery store. This is still a fun activity for me because I've not done it for all these Covid years. It's like regaining eyesight after being temporarily blind. There's joy in those grocery aisles, really there is!

 

How quickly a day goes by! One minute you're pushing a cart in the grocery store and the next you're rubbing your eyes because surely it's later than late, and you haven't quite synced into the local time zone yet. Let's hope the cats are quiet tonight. We need our sleep!

with love...

Tuesday

Maybe I shouldn't have gloated about how we missed all that horrible Wisconsin weather while away on our trip. Sure, no Arctic blast came our way up there in the mountains or in Paris, and yes, there is a warm-up right now in south central Wisconsin, but is this better? This still freezing air, the sleet coming down hard on the roads, the clumpy wet snow left over from the last storm? The cats, chickens and I say no, it is not!

Breakfast of oatmeal. We review the problems surrounding our cats. Seven is too much, we say! And still, what can we do? We feed them and make sure that each has a warm spot for the cold days. Three come into the farmhouse, five use the the sheep-shed, one has a warming hut on the porch. But they are territorial and occasionally they draw boundaries against some of the others. Too, chasing them out of the house can be a drag. They hide from us rather than being pushed outside. It's all a big winter headache and yet, here we are, looking after them, because if not us, then who?

To take my mind off of cats, sleet and slushy snow, I do ballet.

In the later morning, I go to the bakery to restock our supply of croissants and cookies for the kids and bread for Ed. It's good to be back at Madison Sourdough, even though I had no shortage of croissants in the last ten days! 

And in the afternoon, when the icy sleet turns to snow -- wet, accumulating snow, I get in the car once again, this time to pick up the kids. School was closed (again!) yesterday, so I was off duty then, but today I'm back on track. I'm told that both kids are happy to be back with friends and familiar routines.

So, they come to the farmhouse and we have a fabulous time, right? Well, not exactly. As I drive up to the school, well in advance of the pick up time, I check once again the air pressure on the car tires. One had been a tiny bit low and I just want to make sure it's holding steady. And it is. But what's this? Another tire, one that was just fine this morning, is suddenly very low. And I mean very. As I'm wondering if it has enough oomph to even get us home, I get a call from my daughter -- Snowdrop is sick, apparently with the same bug that Sparrow had yesterday and their mommy had the day before. And so I pick them up...

... and drive them home. Not my home, but their home.

And the pressure drops once again. And I know I wont make it back to the farmhouse so I detour to a tire place I know in the neighborhood and sure enough, I have not one but two holes in two tires and say, did you know that on a 4-wheel drive car, you can't just swap out two tires, you have to do all four?

I spend the rest of the afternoon in the tire shop waiting for the car tires to be changed and for the bill to be handed to me so that I can gasp in horror at how expensive the afternoon has become.

On the upside, we did not have a flat on the highway, we did not have to wait to be towed (I cannot change a tire by myself, and in any case, it is snowing and wet and altogether unpleasant outside), the kids are home, and the slow leak and the fast leak are both history by now.

[Ed later says -- I cant believe you had two such punctures! I can only respond -- who am I to question the wisdom of the tire shop? They're reputable, they've been around for decades. They say swap, I swap!]

Home now, with two cats that refuse to go out, with too many fresh croissants and fresh chocolate chip cookies, and with a distracted Ed who is working away at his machine design.

What an interesting first "normal" day back this has been!

home again

In one of those endless waits yesterday (airport lines, delays, holdups -- that kind of thing), Snowdrop told me that one reason she loves getaway vacations is that they break up the routine for you. Pull you out of your regular schedule. It's funny because I share that view, despite the fact that neither she nor I dislike our routines. In fact, I'm really fond of my days of animal care, of writing, reading cooking, school pick up. Of breakfasts and dinners with Ed. Of couch time afterwards. And yet, that break was heavenly. Just to shut off and redirect the mind. A restart when I get home again.

Coming back from Europe is easier on the body than going there. You wake up early and go to sleep earlier and that's just fine. Well, except for the first day when the number of sleep hours is halved and your energy levels are quartered. Still, I was with the animals at the usual hour, admiring the snow, the deer, the paw prints, the first rays of sunlight.

Breakfast? Ed had an early morning call and I did not want to wait for him to be done. That coffee isn't a luxury on the return, it's a necessity. I could not move forward without it, so it was just me and the cats. And the forced bulbs that started blooming in my absence.

(We have an Eiffel Tower loving cat...)

Getting the farmhouse in order after being away is a job! I don't mind doing it. Putting things away makes you feel like you're done living out of a suitcase and that's just such a relief. Nonetheless, it takes time. The fridge is empty, the laundry has piled up, the plants are dry (I forgot to tell Ed to water them) -- it all needs that TLC  to keep things looking presentable. Well, except for the hole in th kitchen ceiling and in the bathroom wall. Hardly presentable, but we've grown so used to it that I'll miss both when Ed finally does get around to patching things up.

The deep freeze came and went -- I missed the entire dire event! Today, the temps climbed up to freezing, which is just perfect for cross country skiing. The snow cover is good, the trails are modestly groomed. It's a wonderful way to return to winter in Wisconsin.

with love...

leaving Paris

We are leaving Paris today. The good news is that our departure is not at the usual ungodly hour, such that we would have to be up at 5 and at the airport at 7, hungry and tired before the trip had even begun. Our flight to Detroit is to take off in the afternoon. That means I can let the girl sleep in. I can take extra care with packing us up. We can go down to our lovely breakfast downstairs. Croissants, baguette. Yogurts, juice. Cappuccino. And bacon for the little one!

 

 

Too, we have time for one last Parisian walk. I give her some choices. She opts for the river. Perfect! We walk the blocks leading up to the Seine...

 

 

 

 

 

 

And cross at the lovely pedestrian bridge...

 

 

 

... which offers great views to the east (above) and to the west (below).

 

 

 

We cut through the Louvre courtyard and talk about what's inside, what art we will someday investigate. And of course we admire the pyramid.

 

 

 Paris will begin warming up this afternoon, but right now, in the morning hours, it's still pretty cold, so Snowdrop opts to return rather than continue. I have to agree. We will have walked a good bit. We are satiated with Paris.

Or are we? The girl tells me she is happy to see her fam again but she is super sad at having this trip behind her. And she hates leaving Paris. And I have to wonder -- what is it about this city that draws her in? I get why I like being here, but Snowdrop is just a kid. Why does she love it so much? I have the presence of mind not to ask. Sometimes feelings are best left undefined. Without explanation. Without bursting the bubble with some platitude and speculation.

 

 

 

We choose a different set of blocks for our walk back. There's street art here. Lovely! 

 

 

 

 

 

And now we are back in our hotel and by noon we make our way downstairs, say goodbye to the fabulous Hotel Baume staff and catch our cab ride to the airport.

My last photo from Paris? A selfie from our walk across the Seine.

 

 

The trip back is not difficult. Sure, there was the matter of the delayed flight, the broken chair, the late return, the looooong wait at passport control. None of it matters. We had a beautiful set of days. The girl is happy. I am happy.

Hi Ed.... Did you miss me? 

Goodnight to all. We are home.