review and reflect

Is it the end of the week already? Does anyone else feel like this week contained three years of history in it?

Snowdrop's school is closed today for parent teacher conferences and so immediately after my breakfast with Ed...





... I go to the little one's home while her parents hurry off to school to get the lowdown on their child. That, of course, is for them to enjoy and feel proud about, but I will say this much -- all three teachers repeated again and again how happy, busy and joyful Snowdrop is.


During this Fall, the little one has spent a lot of time playing at the farmhouse in the afternoons. There are many reasons for it and she seems to love coming here. But this morning, I linger at her own home, curious to see what she likes to do there. And while at her house, I'm thinking -- it's time for a self release photo! They have the perfect set up for it and I used to do this all the time when Snowdrop was very little.

She enjoys it as much now.






I see that she also loves to study her mommy's cookbooks, which amuses me no end because her mom did the exact same thing when she was a toddler: study carefully the food photos and give labels to whatever ingredients she recognized.






Eventually, the fine (though increasingly cooler) weather beckons and I propose a walk. I don't think Snowdrop has ever turned down a walk. Shoes on, little girl!

Lately, Snowdrop has been intensely focused on babies -- her own photos and, too, the Duplo baby character in her Lego set. When I put on a Raffi song about "baby dear," she listens intently to the words that talk of comforting and loving a baby. Perhaps the sweetest phrase out of her mouth today come as I buckle her shoes and she snuggles into my shoulder and says -- "hi, Gaga dear!"



At the distant coffee shop -- which we haven't visited since school started -- she is so much older, more patient, more in control of her environment now.






She remembers to go for the high chair even though it's been such a long time since we've been here.





And of course, she knows how to coax a smile out of me as she waves her little finger and cajoles -- one more cookie please!



After our walk, we come back to the farmette. Again, she is only mildly interested in outdoor play on arrival. Very quickly, she heads for the house.






What is she into these weeks? Have her interests shifted? Definitely. She loves her Duplo-lego set, of course, especially the one with the coffee shop, which has the little kids eating, would you believe it -- baguettes.






But she is equally enthralled with trains and cars.






And always, always, she'll listen for music to dance to. One favorite is the song about going to, as she says "ahah's farm" (aka "on our way to grandpa's farm").







After this uniquely tumultuous week, I feel very much the need to take stock. Not only as to where Snowdrop is and what toys draw out her greatest creative interests, but, too, where we all are.

Winter is coming to the farmette. I pick up my first batch of spinach today from our farmers who deliver it to us all winter long. I'll be bringing in the annuals that I want to save tonight: we're finally expecting frost. And I'll be picking out books to read for the months ahead. And writing projects to return to. Like the squirrel that hoards nuts for the cold days before us, I hoard plans, ideas and thoughts.

Sometimes you have to shelve some rather antiquated stuff you've clung to for too long and find fresh directions. As I watch at this second Snowdrop manipulate an especially difficult (for her young hands) toy, I resist the temptation to insert myself into her play. You grow when you've experienced failure, not only success. The little one knows that instinctively. Me, I have to remind myself this basic truth every now and then.


Evening. Snowdrop is delighted to have Ed in the farmhouse. She doesn't know that he has now succumbed to what plagued me all week long -- the sniffles that a toddler passes on repeatedly when she first begins school. But Ed is Ed. I would have said -- go upstairs and sleep (for Ed, sleep cures most ailments). He doesn't do that. And the little girl is at his side, tickled to play "ahah's famrhouse" with him...






... to have him read to her....






Happy girl. Yes, I agree -- it's her defining characteristic.






It's getting dark. I ask her if she wants to go out with ahah to close up the coop. Of course she does.

It's a chance to listen to the night here, to find the moon, to look up at the crab apple and in the shadows of the night -- find a birds' nest.





Goodnight moon. Goodnight Snowdrop. Goodnight week. Hello a quiet evening.

Thursday

Two days after the election. Are we all adjusting to the new reality? Well, if you fill your days with routines that are the same today as they were last week, you really do have to stop thinking and rethinking what's what and instead, you concentrate on fitting in your usual two grocery stores and putting away the perishables ever so quickly so that you wont be late to pick up your granddaughter at school. Only when she sleeps briefly in the afternoon do you allow yourself the luxury of reflecting on what just happened.


Our morning dawned with a repeat of this most precious gift this year: perfect skies and perfect autumnal temperatures. I can't recall a November that has been this generous to us!






Breakfast. We exchange stories and opinion pieces that we've read in the press in our waking hours. The goal is to understand...






And then, frankly, I just rush. In the car, to one store, out and in, out and in again, another store, then run run run with the grocery bags, throw perishables in the fridge and dash to be at Snowdrop's school around noon.

This way, little girl! Snowdrop, this way!






The day is so beautiful! I'm all set to play outside with her at the farmette  and she's willing, but I sense that her mind is elsewhere.






Minutes into our play she hurries inside...






Okay, I get it. She's seen the grocery bags and the telltale sac with the baguette in it. Nothing else can compete.






"One more baguette (piece) please!"






Prenap book moment with ahah...






... and she's out.


In the late afternoon, after her nap, the air turns a bit chilly. Still, this is when Snowdrop remembers how much she loves the great outdoors here.

We go out, bundled against the wind. She knows how to call the cheepers for their share of bread and her sweet and loud voice is full of authority and conviction: "cheepers!!"

They come running.






But Snowdrop's main goal is not to hang with the cheepers. She wants to go to the "sheep shid" where ahah works.

We walk over. As always, he is as patient as can be, letting her take the lead in exploring this man cave of machines and computer screens.






Outside again.






I tell her I need to clear out the newly fallen seed pods. She's happy to direct things from the top of the farmette wagon.


 



Ed joins us and she shows him how strong and willing she is now.






Her newest challenge: to jump. High.
Almost there, Snowdrop!






Yeah, you got it!






Emboldened, she runs off toward the front yard. I coil in the summer hose. The two wild guys throw leaves at each other.






And in the front bed, the iris plant is just sending out a plethora of new blooms!






The sun has almost set...






Time to return inside...






Day is nearly done...






Just enough time for a short video that Ed finds for her about penguins.







Sometimes the mind wraps itself around things other than politics.

And that may be a very good thing indeed.

the morning after

I Waking up to the unexpected 


Well of course, I was wrong in predicting that a woman would be our next president. I could have updated yesterday's post, but I didn't do that, because most of the hours of the day I had spent thinking that Donald Trump would be defeated. The post stands true to those hours.

We gave up watching and listening when Trump crossed over to a solid win, but of course, it had been obvious for many hours already that this would happen. Those same polls and predictors that had solidly stood behind his loss and her gain, swung crazily in the course of the day and I believed what they foretold, in the same way that I had believed what they had previously and quite differently told us. It's hard to get me to abandon logic and reason, particularly when I make political calculations.

At night, I had my recurrent dream about the airplane: I'm on it and I see that it is unexpectedly starting a descent -- ultimately to land in some small unknown to me village, in a place that I do not recognize. There is no airport or runway, but the large jet lands safely, though without explanation as to why, or what now from the cockpit. We disembark. I remember to take my pack, but only that. I have no idea where we are or how a huge airplane is going to take off and continue on its journey again. It's a dream that comes often to me at times when something in the course of the day catches me by surprise and puts me in new territory.

I don't know about you, but after an election, no matter what the outcome, I think about my children and now, too, my grandchild. Me -- I'm retired.  I've lived under many different presidents, indeed under different regimes. But for those who are younger, there's a lot to think about and I had a whole night to imagine how I might have answered a Snowdrop question of "what now?" had she been old enough to ask it.

Maybe because I am a postwar child, maybe because I think it helps in life to feel optimism -- I'll likely look ahead with the belief that many good people will work hard to make sure that this country moves forward in some fashion. Let's get crackin'. There's work to be done!

Let me start by picking up more of the lotus tree seed pods that showered the yard again last night.






And yes, it is another gorgeous, sunny day here, in Wisconsin. No frost yet. You look out and you think -- we live in a beautiful land. Let's take care of it.






II How oddly normal this day seems!

At first, Ed resists the idea of breakfast. Cereal, after reading countless opinions as to what happened and what the future holds seems so wrong somehow!

Or so right? I'm in favor of preserving the best of our lovely routines.






Inevitably, we do a lot of reading after that. And yard work -- a therapy of sorts. Improving something is a good antidote to the potential for a large scale disruption.


And then I pick up Snowdrop.

(Just out of school...)






She, of course, sets her mood by the mood of others and by the weather and by the book she can "read" or the toy that's there for her.






Yes -- the weather. It's a mood booster, that's for sure!






(Quiet time...)







III Child's play


After her nap, it's all so normal! She colors...






She "cooks soup."






She insists on going out again. It's cooler now. Coat goes on.






I show her the seed pods I'd picked. She wants to help push the cart. Now there's a difficult undertaking!






She settles on a ride on top. And she sees the moon. It shines brightly over us all tonight. Did you know that?






The two read until Snowdrop's parents come to take her home.






Let me end with flowers. Nasturtium. For all of us who really need flowers today.

a day of firsts

As I write this, nothing about today's election is yet determined. But I'm going to go out on a limb and predict a win for Hillary Clinton -- giving us a first female American president.

I like firsts that shatter at least a few barriers to success. I like them when they make a positive statement. I like them when they involve women, because I am surrounded by girls in my family and their future depends in part in how this society regards women.

So I like predicting that Ms Clinton will lead this nation, following the tremendously awesome presidency of Mr. Obama.

These, at least, are my happy thoughts and I'll keep them with me for the rest of this beautiful November day.

And it is a brilliantly sunny day yet again! Ed and I had contemplated going out to breakfast after voting, but we love our breakfast at home and so we reverse ourselves and eat first. In the sun room...





And then we vote. No lines, no fuss. Ballots cast.


When I pick up Snowdrop at school, I see that she is in a spirited and happy mood. Wouldn't this be a good time to take her for her first real haircut? Her parents had given me the instruction to either cut or have cut their little one's rather wild and uneven hair and though I've cut Snowdrop's bangs many a time, I decided to let Lyndsy -- a neighborhood stylist -- do the first all around trim. I have a sentimental attachment to this small little salon, as it's where my younger girl had her hair done for her wedding and it's where my older girl and I continue to get haircuts. May as well add a generation to Lyndsy's repertoire.

I walk in, just to ask if there would be a good time to schedule a visit today, but Lyndsy herself is at that moment getting a hair treatment and she happily pauses to work on Snowdrop.

Neither of us are sure how the little girl would take to the whole experience.  I'll let you guess!

(Before)





("Can you look down?" Well, sort of...)






There. Finished. After:






Let's see the back!






Happy girl! But then, this is how one would describe Snowdrop on most days, haircut or no haircut!






At home, she rediscovers an old toy that requires a lot of thumb action and as I watch her, I again have the uncanny feeling of seeing her as she will be perhaps a decade from now...





Ah, may that happiness at discovering all life's possibilities always stay with her!


I have a rather unusual early evening -- I'm scheduled to have a drink with two women who were once (several decades ago!) my students and who are now very successful in their lawyering work in town. It's always special when someone morphs from being student to friend and somehow it feels especially right on this day to beam at the way the lives of these two bright and happy women have turned out.

And then I return home and watch election returns with Ed  and it strikes me that he is the one guy who has crossed my path today, but there isn't a sweeter way to end this day, this election, this important election than to celebrate it at home, us two, munching on pistachios and chocolates as the evening progresses.