Saturday, December 05, 2015

a memorable Saturday

I had to make a lot of noise to wake the guy up to ask him then if he was alert enough to have breakfast with me.

The answer:


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After the morning meal, I drive to Snowdrop's home. Her mom and I have a date to take the little one (who is eleven months old today!) to the Children's Museum. There is to be a toddler-targeted presentation of the Nutcracker ballet. We are curious if Snowdrop will like it.

On goes her holiday dress. One last glance at the Christmas tree (which still leaves her quite mystified, in a delighted sort of way - as in: why is there a tree with toys on it in the house?)...


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... and we're off.

The production is quite informal -- a few dancers perform in the middle of the Museum's art room, with a smattering of chairs scattered at the side for the audience. But here's the thing: the director of today's mini Nutcracker had been in charge of Madison's grand Nutcracker when my younger daughter was herself a serious ballet dancer. I think my girl must have danced in it some five years in a row and what we all remember is that one of those years, she danced the part of Clara. The memories of this are especially poignant, since today's dancers appear to be wearing the same costumes that my daughter once wore.

And Snowdrop? She loves it! Unlike many of the kids who are mildly indifferent to the whole thing, she is mesmerized by every dancer,


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... every movement, every bit of music.


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... clapping away, even when it isn't a dance's end.


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And not a little in awe of today's Clara.


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We have a lovely encounter with the director (who herself is now a grandma) and the morning surely gets tucked into the files of good memories that we acquire from events that repeat themselves, but now with a different cast of players, from a different generation.


At Snowdrop's home, I have my last handful of hours with her. I'm leaving tomorrow and so I wont see the wee one until the end of the following week.


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Much of our play centers around the tree.


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She has grown to like it, but if I worried that she would be reaching to pull it apart, I was wrong. She is in awe of it and that, perhaps, is a good thing. Even so, it's not hard to get her to giggle with delight.


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Because, really, there is a magic to the whole enterprise, no?  The sudden burst of color, the presence of pine needles on the floor, the smell of a forest... Over time, you find your favorite ornaments -- here are some that are carried over from my daughters' childhood...


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and it's all exquisitely beautiful, in an expansive sort of way.


We read a Christmas book...


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I roll her around some...


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And then it's time to say good bye. Stay healthy and happy, little girl!


Back at the farmette, my list of tasks is long but I hesitate to rush through it. Instead, Ed and I take a walk...


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sunset over the farmette


And after, in a very unusual move, he and I go out to dinner at Tempest -- a seafood restaurant downtown. Entirely his idea.


We eat well of course. It reminds me so much of all the great meals we've eaten together, especially across the ocean. We nearly always agree if a kitchen is producing good food or if it's just stumbling through the motions. The funny thing about Ed is that he actually has a keen sense of what makes for good eating, even if so often he'll choose to ignore it, preferring to reheat the old rather than spend time (or have me spend time) on creating something new.


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All this of course makes it harder for me to leave tomorrow. And still, as always, I cannot imagine not going.

The usual Ocean warning: travel tends to disrupt the schedule of postings. If all goes well, I'll write something en route. If not, you'll surely hear from me soon, from the other side of the ocean.

Friday, December 04, 2015

a fine Friday

Good morning, cheepers! It's going to be a fine day!


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Sunshine in the morning...


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Breakfast in the sun room...


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Then, in an unusual scheduling twist, Snowdrop comes to the farmhouse to play.

Hi Snowdrop!


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Ready to read? Oh, that one again? Well, okay.


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She is not here for long. After feeding the cheepers, after a nap and lunch, we pick up her mom and we drive to the Forestry Department's annual tree sale. Balsams!

Puzzled - yes, of course. Why are there all these trees inside a big barn??  But with reassurance, she gets into the spirit of things.


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The tree is loaded, we come to Snowdrop's home and the unpacking of holiday decorations begins. The Nativity scene!


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And the quilted tree skirt -- a real favorite!


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And the tree. My daughter puts out treats for us tree trimmers. Goldie the cat is coaxed into several bits of prosciutto.


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Here are the young parents: jovial and spirited.


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And here is Snowdrop, loving her very own gingerbread man.


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(When she sees us eating pizza, she switches her allegiance. Good bye ginger bread man, hello leftover pizza crust.)


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The tree is up, trimmed, lit. Snowdrop has been such a good kid during the entire saga. She deserves a pause, an explanation, a reassurance that this is not the beginning of a weird disequilibrium where trees enter houses and grownups wear reindeer antlers and fur trimmed hats for no discernible purpose.


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She accepts our reassurance. She is happy. We are happy.


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The tree is up. Our whole family will gather by it during the holidays. For now I pack up the leftover pizza and bring it home to the farmhouse. 

Thursday, December 03, 2015

a very special Thursday

Of course every day is special. Of course. Ed and I agree on this. So that breakfast is special. Always. Every day.


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And planning out a day is wonderful, too. I have a mental list of things to accomplish, foods to get ready for supper. It's all quite sublime.

But as we get closer to the holidays and I get closer to my departure date (it's not a long trip -- just ten days), I especially savor these early days of December.

It's not a drop dead gorgeous landscape right now. Not enough snow. But what little there is makes me pause to admire it. This photo is from my drive to Snowdrop's home. The fields are across the road from us and though I have not a small amount of regret that the landowner no longer wants to let the truck farmers plant their crops here, turning the land over to corn and soy farming instead, I do smile at his annual habit of putting a bike and a wreath out there for all to see. It's a modest decoration, but I do appreciate the effort.


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At her house, Snowdrop wakes, eats, and gives that "let's go!" smile I so associate with her in the morning.


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Yesterday's mall outing convinced me that we ought to get her more used to shoes and so I dig out the pretty pair in her closet and tell her that she should romp in them today. She pretended not to mind. For a minute. Clap clap clap your hands!


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I had to roll her around on the floor to bring back the smile after that.


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Bouncing high in the air helped too. Way up high, in the sky, Snowdrop will fly...


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And one more sure fire winning activity: reminding her that there is this magnetic Christmas tree downstairs...


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Oh, she does not want to leave it! Even after I tell her I'll be boiling water for tea -- something that we do daily and that thrills her no end (in a happy but terrified way, as we wait for the tea kettle to whistle) -- she does not want to leave that tree.


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Nap time. Followed by a beautiful wake up. Well, it's nearly always a beautiful wake up!


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And now comes the afternoon and the day takes on an additional patina of wonderfulness. Snowdrop and I pick up her mommy at work and the three of us make our way to our favorite holiday bakery -- Clasen's. We come here only during the Christmas season and we do so for that wonderful treat that is impossible to find anywhere else here (and it's so ever-present in Germany and, too, in Poland): chocolate covered gingerbread.

For Snowdrop, there is the added bonus: the life-size gingerbread house.  I brought my daughters here every year of their childhood (presumably it's not the same gingerbread house... surely they bake a new one each year?). And now it's Snowdrop's turn.


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At first, she doesn't know what to make of it. But after running a finger across the surface, she realizes that it... is... sweet!


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It gets better. Today is the day that she is given her first sugared delicacy. Clasen's always has samples of sweet stuff around and the raspberry spice cake becomes Snowdrop's first great indulgence.


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Verdict? Oh, come on! Of course she loves it!


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So much good stuff here! The girl just can't get enough of it! (what else? Cinnamon twist? Yum!)


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Out of the cart again, she is thrilled with the crinkly paper and the ribbons tying each bag of cookies or candies.


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Such a day!

And for me, it does not end with this.

I drive home smiling. It's been a good set of weeks. If I am sometimes out of hours, or a tad tired, it's for the best of reasons. My young families are thriving. The farmette is keeping it's own. The cheepers are resilient. And Ed -- he's as he always is: smart, steady and calm.

I'm feeling steady and calm myself.

And then at home, I find a package. It's from Dan, an artist  and an enduring friend of Ocean. An image of Snowdrop inspired him to paint. Here's his gift -- a painting so exquisitely beautiful that it truly makes me spin.


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This isn't the place to thank Dan. That comes separately. But I do want to say that I have come across these beautiful spirits here on Ocean and it is so reassuring, so very reassuring, because I know that this is what we really do leave behind for our children and grandchildren. Generosity and love.

I'll leave you with that message.

Wednesday, December 02, 2015

Wednesday

We woke to a dusting of delicate snow. Such purity!


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It's unusual that I do not check my computer throughout the day -- for mail, for news -- but today was such a day. I was so totally focused on the task of caring for Snowdrop that it wasn't until late, very late, that I realized there was yet another tragedy unfolding, this one in California.

My post is written with that total innocence of not knowing, not thinking about the vile instincts buried within the human soul.  In other words, it is written in the way that I always want to write it: with a belief that the quiet, the calm, the noble prevails.


Light snow. Nothing that would bring the skis out from the porch, where they rest waiting for a real workout...


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But enough to make me smile as I go out to free the cheepers. Of course, the girls think that it's all too much for their delicate sensibilities. You can see them eyeing the world with some suspicion. You want to leave the barn for this? No? Me neither!


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We had our share of wakeful hours at night, as Ed is still trying to manage his bronchial issues (but he's on an upswing!) and so not surprisingly, I crawl back to bed after my run to the barn. And then I proceed to sleep too late and so breakfast is a tad too hurried...


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... and when I arrive at Snowdrop's home, she is already bathed and ready for play. Here's her what do you have in mind for today, grandma? moment.


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But perhaps I should reinterpret that pose, because now that she moves with such freedom, and now that she knows how to get my attention and to bring out my own peels of laughter, she takes charge of her play. I can redirect, but the fact is, she has firm ideas about what she loves and what she wants to do.

From the beginning, she's insistent that I dance with her. Well, okay, that works for a handful of songs. But she is awfully close to 20 pounds and I'm awfully close to social security's official retirement age. I can switch her to bouncing on my knee for a while...


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But inevitably, she'll come and raise her arms in that universal gesture of wanting to be held up up up! In her case, to the rhythm of some bouncy music. Jingle bells will do!

And speaking of the holidays, Snowdrop is keen on showing me her newest interest -- the magnetic advent calendar. Oh, does she love it!


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It's pointless to tell her she is doing the countdown backwards. As I said, Snowdrop has strong views on matters of play.

Until she exhausts herself.

And then she is happy to snuggle on grandma's tummy ...


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In the afternoon, I tell the girl: we're going to the mall!

This, of course, means nothing to her. To my knowledge, she'd only been to the mall once, with me (oh! -- what does this say about me??), when she was so wee that surely she recognized nothing but a blur of activity.

Today, I don't have a stroller with me, but I'm thinking surely there will be something at the mall for harried shoppers. If you're a mall manager, wouldn't you want to make life easy for the mommies or grandmas so that they would feel free to spend, spend, spend?

They do have something. For a fee. A huge car thing that I think surely will intimidate her. Should I spend the $5?

I put in my credit card. Having already hauled the babe across the entire mall (in search of the strollers), I need to put her down. Into something I can push.

It turns out she is natural at the wheel.


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Here's a full view of the "stroller:"


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Snowdrop is a determined driver!


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After a few rounds, she decides climbing out is equally fun.


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Alright, in you go, into the basket, little one! (While grandma returns some impulsive online purchases.)


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We pop over to the Apple store to see if I am eligible for the new iPhone (no: 12 more days). This is her least favorite. Apple geeks seem to unnerve her. The store is brights, stark, cold. She is happy to be out.


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At Payless, I have her try on shoes. No, I don't think so. Back they go.


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And finally we drive back, to the peace of the farmette.


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Such a beautiful place, in all seasons.

Snowdrop is in her sweetest, liveliest mood tonight. Here's a photo of her supper -- leeks and chicken mush, followed by strawberries. It may have been her first strawberry. I think in the end she likes it almost as much as the mush.


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I'll end with a photo of our play of light on the wall. It always enchants her. And me. Stars, moons, Saturn and somewhere in there, our own troubled but so very beautiful Earth.


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